I just said that I will be on a two-week leave but here I am again punching the keys in front of a blank screen. I cannot stop myself from writing, apparently. I warn you though, this might just be some rambling about how my days are lately.
Let’s be honest here, I hate the crowd; I hate to be with too many people; I can only enjoy one company at a time; I eat only with people I highly respect, and I only go out with people I want to get to know. But on a Wednesday morning I broke down and cried so hard and loud on the commute to school; and on a Wednesday afternoon, I ate breakfast and pizza with four people. My rules bent, my walls crumbling down. We talked about love life and first impressions and I was a bit skeptical about it but there, The Ultimate Jenna Hamilpuff Revelation.
On a Thursday morning I went on a ride with mom around town and I realized how much I missed riding with her alone. On Thursday afternoon Cha braided my hair and I was again back to my comfort zone. I have to act fast when it comes to getting over Crowd Fever because if I don’t I’d go crazy and haywire that I won’t be able to control myself from laughing out loud and talking to random people: Crazy Af Jenna.
Lying in bed I think in deep while listening to The Writer’s Playlist on Spotify. Why am I doing the things I am doing? What am I fighting for? Isn’t it enough for me to be creating and doing too many things? Urgh.