“It’s better this way. A little lonelier but better.”— Lisa Schroeder, The Day Before (taken from booksnquotes )
The semester of the year is about to end and I haven’t made a single close friend. I mean, yes, I have talked to people, like I walk home with them or talk to them whenever we meet in class or when we needed to talk about our subjects. But I don’t have anyone to talk to about anything or nothing at all. You know, the typical friendship thing you have in college or just that casual conversation about everything. And I think that it is indeed better this way. It’s a little lonelier but better.
And maybe that’s why I’ll miss “Okja”– one of my mentors in scale modeling–when he finally goes for Nueva Ecija or was it Cavite? I haven’t paid attention to the details as I was more inclined to the fact that he won’t be here anymore to scold me or to bully me and I won’t have someone to bully and that I’d have one less person to talk to about food or politics. Ha ha!
I guess am just too used to talk to people from my hobby than with people out there–normal people, normal individuals. But I guess, letting them be and not involving myself with them would make things easier. I’ll come and go as I please, I will just be here to study and I’d disappear one day without anyone noticing it. And that’s exactly what I want.